The 9th August 2017, has had a marker against it for quite some time. Almost mythical "1000 days" it seemed such a far away place, a foreign land but in truth it has now become my reality.
The first thing you notice when you stop drinking however, is that alcohol is everything to just about everyone and it is absolutely everywhere.
I have just spent a fun weekend away with some close friends in a youth hostel .. 8 bed dormitory with bunk beds. People assume we have gone away for a booze fest, a hen do, a wild night out. Of course, when I tell them not a drop of alcohol touched our lips and we had an amazing time, it raises a few eyebrows and then come the questions. It's not surprising though, as alcohol is thrust under our noses everywhere; every shop, supermarket , tv programme, advert, magazine, overheard conversation… it all promotes alcohol, portraying it to be the life and soul of every event, every milestone and a life without alcohol is construed to be a life without fun.
Yet I have had more fun in the passing 1000 days, than I can honestly say hand on heart I had in the previous 2000, when alcohol was what I believed mattered. When alcohol was removed, I slowly began to emerge from my numbed out state and gradually began to feel and experience real joy. I laugh and cry a lot, which was a bit strange at first but I am beginning to embrace it. I love that I can have genuine belly laughs with people who matter, I wake each morning rested and without regret, no hangovers, no brain fog and and I am learning what really matters and more importantly who.
I am a work in progress and I am enjoying continued growth and development working towards my own goals and objectives. It is an exciting time and life I feel should be exciting. If it feels stagnate then something needs to change, you're not challenging yourself enough.
I have recently changed career returning to an area I felt I was no longer capable or suitable for. I love it because it is challenging and pushing me from every angle. I drive to Sheffield city centre most days .. none of this would be possible without the confidence and focus I now have since ditching my poison.
There are days of course when I want to scream, or curl up. When life throws that unexpected curve ball it still hits home but I have discovered an inner strength and I know I am resilient enough to learn and move on.
I really want to thank my lovely husband Steve for his unwavering support over the past 1000 days , my three gorgeous children, my lovely family and my friends who have become my family. You all rock!